It is not a very good day for me. I thought I was prepared for my German exam and I was really only half prepared. I guess its to the Deutsch Assistentin for me. To make things worse, I had two online quizes that I had due today at 12 and I didn't do either one. I am super distracted and unfocused. I never have been a good test taker. I do great on homework and classwork but, when it come to sitting down and taking a test, I get in this panic zone that just makes me forget everything I just learned. I took an hour and a half to finish this test. If I can't keep it together now, what is it going to be like with my overload of classes in the fall?
What I really could have used today was a couple of hours of dead lifts, leg presses, and squat deck with the angriest death metal piped into my ears. A heavy bag and some boxing gloves could have been good too. I have a few faces I wouldn't mind taping to one of those. What I got was an hour of hippy tranquility sounds and yoga poses. I couldn't control my breathing to go any slower than usual which is just painful when you are bent over in half. I had to do modified poses whenever I had to move my left leg back and stretch it. My left upper quad is still pulled, torn, or something bad.
I want to hit something, I want to hit it hard! <<<----This is me today, right now. M'Lynn, I feel you sister.
So, that's my rant. Its been a shit-tastic day. All I can do is study harder and thank my lucky stars that he drops the lowest test grade. I'm going to push out the murder thoughts and any residual violence from my mind. Well, at least try to. I always have a little something or other violent rattling around in there.
Tomorrow, the gym class is back to regular stuff like step aerobics. I don't love step aerobics but I don't hate it either. It would be great if it were not so hard on my knees. Part of it is for making the knees stronger though. Either way, I'll get a good sweat going, great cardio workout, and the lower body will be nice and sore.
German class will be moving on to the next chapter and I hope this next exam goes better than the last. I blame myself for all of my stresses. I have failed to pace myself through all of this college business and now I'm worn out with two and a half semesters left to complete. I will have about a month break before fall starts but that is no comfort because there is no GI Bill housing allowance for the days you are not attending class. Back to the whore house I call my sewing room where I sew copious amounts of projects priced far less than what they are worth.
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